Summer 2009 and Beyond

To Do - Updated 4/1/10
- Purchase hammock and practice the art of swinging in one
- Buy a beginners book for a new language
- Buy more science fiction novels to read
- Learn an instrument
- Learn to cook three amazing Vegetarian dishes
- Spend a day in some else's shoes
- GET A JOB (work hard)
- Swim once a day during the warm months
- Put on local music events with Stono
- Start up some kind of physical activity-type hobby
- Think of more 'To Do's'
- Start being more organised
- Drink more water
- Eat things other than junk food!
- GET A FUCKING JOB
- Take photos
- Do some volunteer work

It's so funny how you think you know what lesson you're meant to learn and you end up finding out something completely different.

That makes life interesting.

Dammit all, I am just sad

Everything's staying as fucked up because all that I used to have burned out in a jar like a lightning bug.

If I wasn't getting out of there in 8 weeks I think I might just run away.

I want things to go back to how they were.
I want friends again.
I want time.
I want to be more sincere.
I want to do good things and not hate so much.

Mostly I just want back the people I love so much.

Want.

I just want a purpose and I just want there to be something I love doing.

I feel so lost.

Guess what?

I have just learnt that society doesn't care what you know, it cares how you look.
There are cunts out there giving chances out to people who look a certain way and act a certain way and they couldn't give two fucks about qualifications or substance.

It's not fair that I won't get a look in when it comes to things because of how I look. If I were more attractive and I acted in a different way (I don't know, maybe like a complete air-head) then people would be lining up to hear my ideas, no matter how batshit crazy or downright retarded they were.

It doesn't take skill to be able to know what's 'in', it takes skill to be ORIGINAL and come up with actual ways to implement ideas.

Fuck all those jerks who can't see past the external and give more people more chances to reach their potential.

There really are a lot of people that I wouldn't piss on if they were on fire.

EDIT: Then again, maybe I'm just jealous that I can't be that image.

Yeah.

I can't even think anymore.

I got so many problems, and they weigh on my mind

Life is too short to be fucked around by 'friends' and I don't like that some of the people who really used to be my friends are now those shitty, useless 'friends' that are just baggage we all carry around and feel shit about.

I refuse to make any more attempts at friendships with people who aren't worth it and, to be honest, anyone who thinks that's terrible of me, can go and get fucked.

I want my friends to be the ones who I hang out with, have good times with and know I can count on for a night out and a laugh. And, most importantly, I want friends who care enough to accept me for me.

Fuck the rest.

Love always(for those who matter), Morgs.